`- / Things that shock me

( CONVO )

I have no special talent. I am only passionately curious. says:
*Did you see your friend's lifeless eyes stare at you?
*Did you see your Dad's lifeless eyes
*Looking at you
*?
*That memory haunts me
*Till no end
foreverinmy heart-- says:
*I'VE SEEN ALL OF THIS
*have you ever had
*your brother die
*because he thought that your life
*meant more
*than his?
*have you seen you grandma fight for her life
*so she could see her family one more time
*before she passed away?

`- / Not another goodbye ):

` At baby's house ,
` yes , everything is alright cause our love is STRONG ! :D
` Not much to say cause i'm knda happy now and there aint anything to post actually :/
` So yeahh ,
` Just wanna say ,

` I dont want go leave you too baby ,
` I dont want another goodbye ):
` Cause everytime you go ,
` My heart aches .
` I cant bare to leave ):

` Leaving for another day ,
` Like leaving half my Heart behind :/
` Empty .

` But we will meet soon again my love <3

`- / Uncertainty has got the best of me .

` You said ` Holidays was just getting worse `
` I wondered what had happened and so i asked .
` Than i looked at my comment and scrolled down .
` ( FACEBOOK )
` Than i said to myself ,
` Why would he reply me ?
` He only replied his friends or mei ETCETC .
` And than i thought to myself ,

` If they asked you ,
` Will you tell them instead of me .
` What made me so different .
` If your friends were more important ,
` If your friends were the one you'd care more about ,
` Than i wish i was your friend .
` Maybe it's because i love you .. too much to be ignored .

` I just don't want to get left behind .
` Not again .
` It is so hard to reply ..
` I just don't get whats on your mind .

` Baby ,
` This love can last forever but First ,
` Dont sit around wishing and wanting it to .
` Dont say you can't forget when truthfully ,
` You just don't want to forget .

` Cause the pain you felt ,
` You CAN let it go but you just refuse to .
` Things can be regained ,
` You know that but you dont want to regain what was lost .
` And let it remain lost forever .

` People wants to give you a chance but you , yourself ain't willing to give yourself
` So how' they going to give you ?
` Stand up and fight for it .
` I believe in you .
` yet you push me away .

` I cant do anything anymore .
` All that i've did seems nothing to you .
` All that We've done .
` Were you happy about it .

` i Tried my best ,
` i Serious did try my best .
` im Losing hope now .
` Cause it seems like you don't care .

` And you just make me feel like giving up .
` Like everything i do is nothing , useless .
` hais .
` I don't know what to do anymore ..

`- / babyy ..
` sorry i failed .
` in everything ...

`- / Note to my babyboy ,

` Though the past may hurt ,
` It passed by ,
` Whats done is done .
` What is lost is lost .

` But that doesn't mean you cant regain anything .
` Our pain makes us stronger ,
` It depends on how we look at it .
` The past is filled with pain .
` The future lies happiness .
` As long as the mistake was corrected .
` Lessons were learn .
` Because everything happens for a reason (:

` My love for you will always grow .
` Losing you is something i cant bare .
` Having you as my boyfriend is dream come true .
` Boy , i love you .

` You'll be the only Prince in my fairytale .
` My only guy in my heart in reality .
` Someday I'll grow up and say ,
` Look at him , ` His going to be my Husband `

`- / Poems from the Heart of a Friend .


What is your meaning of war?
More power?
More riches?
More resources?
At the price of what?
Innocent lives being lost to fight a never ending battle?
Why go to war?
Why not trade?
Are you that power hungry that you have to go to war?
Define your meaning of war.

-Number Ten

To my dear friend,
Always remember if the world gives up on you,
I'll be there beside you smiling at you,
If the world walks out on you,
I'll come in through the door smiling,
If the whole world pushes you aside,
I'll be there to hug you and never let you go,
If the world thinks your useless,
I'll come up with a million ways that your useful,
Always remember I'll be there for you!

From Number Ten to Dawn

`- / Blamed for the things i never did .

` Have you people ever got blamed for your friends doing ?
` Like your friend was stepping on your boyfriend's Shoe and you tried to stop her ?
` In the end you got the cold sholder from him .
` Like everything was your mistake .
` And he just pushed the blame on you .
` Leaving you clueless , making you think of what you've done .

` I bet you have .
` But don't blame them ,
` People cant control their anger and so they vent it on you .
` Just , hold on and forget .
` They never ment to hurt you .
` Be by their side and help them , Their the ones in need .

` Today , Baby ignored my calls ,
` Got worried , met up w Sheila and Alene and went to Bugis .
` The only intention was so i could see if you were alright .
` I heard you were happy , thats great (:

` Love was cold , thats why we need two people to heat it up .
` If i were to say you were the only reason i was on this Earth ,
` Would you believe me ?
` if i told you that because of you , i was finally free of the Darkness ,
` Would you say im just imagining things ?
` I gave you my things cause ,
` i want you t know ,

` Even though they dont sell it anymore or it was the last day they scold it ,
` No matter how much i love it ,
` I want you to have it cause ,
` Nothing is more important to me than you and your love .
` If you ever returned it to me ,
` It'd just like a breakup , remembered you were the one who said it .
` Tho you know i cant keep my stuff yet you believed in me .

` baby your all i need .
` Dont fade away .
` how am i going to live w/o you by my side .
` who said being inlove was nothing but loneliness .
` Who said there cant be happy endings .

- Poem -

The darkness that surrounds us,
It shourds us more than one way,
People use this darkness as their defence to the harsh reality,
They hide in the darkness never revealing their true self,
Binded by the darkness,
Never leaving it,
While some this is a perfect heaven
To others its pure torment,
Not being able to escape from it once your in it,
The darkness come's in many different forms,
A home,
A prision,
A temporarily solution,
What is the darkness to you?
Are you ready to embrace the darkness?

Get ready cause,Let's turn on the darkness.

- Number Ten .

`- / The Heavens is Punishing Me .

` no mood t update :/
` just one thinq t say before i lay dead on my bed ..

` So i guess when you said you love me on the phone last night ,
` you never ment it cause i couldnt feel it like i used to .
` its like an indirect leaving me .
` not in person but through your soul .

`i though we were okay but somehow ,
` you manage t deceive me .
` i guess my feelinqs was right .
` Theres a part changing from you .
` i still cant figure out what .

` Today night ,
` not a call goodnight .
` no iloveyou's .
` boy , your not doing stuff you used to .

` no surprise fetching .
` no surprise hugs .
` no surprise kisses .
` no more iloveyou's at night .
` no more feelinq for me .
` no more forgiveness .

` so much more .
` i cant explain .
` how my heart is breakinq .
` do you remember .
` long ago but not very long ,
` you said you miss coming t my house like you used t ,
` back than when we were still friends .
` and you promise you would .
` boy , you promised .. you .. promised .

` Babyy , do you still remember your promise .

` im tearing up , writing this .
` headache , vomit feelinqs , leg pain and now ..
` Heart's under attack .
` someone ,
` answer my cries .
` someone ,
` Save me , im falling ..

`- /a Look back in the past .

` Have you ever wondered what it would be like when you grow up ?
` what you'll become and who you'll meet ?
` well , it kinda reminds me of when i was young .
` all the thinqs i wanted t be .
` all the thinqs i wanted t have .
` Well , here it goes .

`- / Lookinq back , i realized that thinqs used t be more simple .
Parents doing your stuff , homework was a piece of cake and not havinq t study for exams and still passinq it w/o a prob . Times when nothinq else mattered . we could live freely . without a doubt .
Friends were always there , though thick and thin . Forgiveness was in our blood . No matter how bad thinqs were , we always made it through .
Best is that we could understand each other's needs .
Guy or girl , it doesnt really mattered .
We breath the same air , we eat the same kind of food .
we have our hearts brokened ; we had them fix .
we can talk , we can walk , we can cry and we can smile .
So we're really not that different .
playinq , actinq like we were in a Fairy tale .
Dressing up , beinq who we wanted t be .
than we started t grow up .
People chanqinq , for better or for worse .
Our needs were different , we want parents t butt out .
we had our probs , our downfalls .
Our pain increased and we never let them out .
Afraid no one would understand ; hidinq all the pain behind a smile .
Its the same as wearinq a mask through the day .
Takinq it off at night ,
sitting on the bed and thinkinq of life .
how great it could have been .
not wakinq up from this dream .. More of a Nightmare .
Dont let the darkness takeover the sunlight .
Out shine it .
Get a hold onto your life.
Wakeup from that nightmare and face reality .
Face it and stop runninq away .
it does you no good .
Live for your damn self .
No one owes you anythinq .
Be who you wanted t be .
Forget those bad dreams , their over .
tomorrow's a new day .
A new beginninq .

`- / Waitinq for you ish worth it .

♥

` babyy boy ,
` dont you ever leave me (:
` waitinq for this sillyboy t come over my house now ;o

` its been 1hr30min plus :/
` hope nothinq happened t him ): .
` im going t MRT soon :D

`i wanna wait for him there :x
` HEHEHEHE !
` surprise time HAHAHAHA

♥

` Babeh C;
` you know i will love you forevermore .
` my love for you can never be erased ; babe , you will never be replaced .
` i swear on my life

♥ .

`- / am i the only special one .


Do you know how I feel?
When you talk about her when your talking to me ?
Tell me all the things she's done for you,
All those things I try my hardest to do ,
In the end all it takes from her is a simple text message ?
Do you know how much it hurts me ?
I try my hardest to make you smile ,
Yet my best isnt enough for you ,
Whenever she text's you , you smile the biggest smile I've ever seen ,
Yet for me to get that smile from you it takes so much effort.
Do you know how useless I feel ?
Destroyed,Crushed,Pathetic
Is this what I am to you?
I cant even cheer you up in the slightest ,
What am I to you?
Or is she more important?
Im dying to know the answer to that question ,
Please tell me that Im just being stupid thinking this .

Credits : Alex Tan (:

`- / your love is my ADDICTION .

` Babe ;C .
` i kept tellinq myself you n your mei are just gans ;C
` somehow it doesnt seem t work .
` its makinq my heart confuse day by day by day .
` those 2-3 post hurts ..

` and i dont know why :/ .
` ' 1314 mei ' know you didnt talk t her much now , i think .
` i feel like a Jerk .
` i nearly lost you .
` i keep feelinq like, you deserve better .

` kinda bumped .
` Babe didnt came , but at least he had fun w his friends C:
` tomorrow still cant see babeh :/
` Monday can see you again C;
` ugh , i wish i can see him now ):
` its like theres somethinq killinq me by the second when i dont see him .

` i miss his voice and kisses .
` sighhs .

` planninq t qo out tmr and buy somethinq for BABE <: ` qorsh , im tired now ): ` still keep thinkinq of you . ` maybe if i see you again , ` my Heart's confusion will end :D . ` oh well , ` babeh , ` Sweet dreams :D ` Laogong hen ai ni worh . ` xianq si ni ! ` Even if savinq your life sends me t Heaven .

` babe ,
` know that i'll always be here for you .
` i know on friday , we had so much pain .
` though i cant forget it , i will try . you have too try too .
` it may scar-ed our hearts but we have t heal and forget the pain .
` i promise i wont betray you C; .
` we were so silly t cry .
` but ima cry w you (:
` sweet dreams my dearest galvin lim zeng yu ♥ >

`- / Touched by your sweet words ♥

` Afraid you would leave me .
` you became my weakness .
` your like my heart ♥ .
` and i need you t survive .

` 4.30 am .
` just finish readinq babeeh's blog and commentinq every single post ! C;
` took me afew hours due t hand and wrist pain on left hand ;C .
` A burninq pain inside my right hand .
` and leg aches D:

` I miss my babyy to the max .
` i seen how Jerk-ish i treated him .
` im touched that he still held on ♥ .
` Now thats what you call ; A guy like him comes once in a lifetime .

` his all so perfect .
` his so cute but thats not why i love him .
` it cause of his character , made me love him .
` i dont give a damn of his looks .
` he always looks GREAT & HANDSOMEin my eyes .

` my opinion on him doesnt matter cause i see him as he is .
` his flaws are perfect t me .
` though i may get jealous , he is always there t cheer me up .
` i cant get distracted anymore .
` his the only one for me ♥ .

` so cold right now .
` only air-con on and wearinq babe's jacket ♥ .
` i wish he could wake me up like he used t ;C .
` i wish he came on sat like he used t ;C .

` Maybe its readinq his blog but ..
` i wish i had the old him back ;C . ♥
` sweet post ,
` you made me FEAR
` Afraid you might leave and those sweet words turns into empty words ;C .
` that'd totally crush me D: .

` Going t sleep now.
` the aches are killinq me ):
` headache D:
` hope babeeh sleepinq soundl-y ♥
` becominq a zhu day by day :3
` cant blame him ,
` he got it from me :3

` i wish babyy would give me a surprise visit ;C .
` i really miss him now .
` time passes so fast .
` only if it can slow down abit .
` and pause when im w you . ♥

` Goodnight babe .
` sorry i took so long t comment all your post and slept late.
` i really wanted t finish commenting all the post before turninq in .
` i love you .
` and i really miss you .
` boy i miss your kisses & huggies .
` 25th .

`- / You'll know REAL-LOVE when it comes t you ,

` saw baby's blog finally ! ♥
` i tear-ed over it :c
` it was so sweet .
` it qave me memories ,
` it qave me strenqth .
` i gotta believe we can make it .

` i qotta remind myself his dhe' only one who i love .
` im going t change for the better .
` no more foolinq around .
` i have t change .

` Rememberinq who i was like ,
` I need t be who i really am .
` im not always EMO-ish and SAD .
` Love brought me down .
` True Love ish brinq me back up .

` Baby , your liftinq me up w your soul .
` im feelinq alive .
` GALVIN LIM ZENG YU , i guess KNOW , you ARE my TRUELOVE .
` Please stay in my heart , i wont let you qo .
` No matter how my heart breaks ,
` you will never be replaced anymore my sillyboy ♥

` 10th month ish cominq ,
` are you ready ?
` every day , every hour , every min and every sec w you is all i want ♥
` seeinq you smile brinqs joy in my heart .
` baby we wont fall apart .
` hold tight , we can get through this pain .
` Cause when we are together ,
` we can make through whatever ♥ .

`- / Chanqinq ferh dhe' better .

` i cant qo on another day ,
` i cant live w/o you .
` damage ish done ,
` now how can i sleep if i cant even qet throuqh dhe' thouqht of losinq you .

` you made me PERFECT
` i know i deserve it .
` but have you really lost all faith .
` I know i made mistakes .
` i know i look pathetic now .

` i promise ,
` ( all readers be my witness )
` i wont do anythinq bad t betray you .
` i will listen t you .
` i need you t complete my life .

` im sorry t someone ,
` i know you thought me about life ,
` but i have t say ,
` when your truel-y inlove ,
` you'd do anythinq for dhat' special someone .
` sorry .
` ima keep your advice ,
` maybe it'd be useful in dhe' furture .
` but for now ,
` im followinq my heart .

` Puttinq my life line on yours .

` silly , i know .
` but my love for him ish more than anythinq in this world or any other .
` its somethinq real , somethinq i can feel .
` sorry mum ,
` i made up my mind .
` one day he'd be my hubby .
` his my heart ,
` w/o him , i will fall apart .

` babyy ,
` this is for you ,
` listen ,

` i made so much mistakes yet you forqave everyone of them .
` you have your limits .
` and maybe i needed t be reminded how it felt t lose you .
` i nearly did ,
` and it woke me up ,
` back into reality .
` all the other quys were distractions .
` your dhe' only love .

` qive me 3 days ,
` and i'll do my best for you .
` t prove t you ,
` your dhe' only one i love .
` Im sorry i've failed everytime .
` lettinq you down .

` Babyy ,
` i dont wanna qo t bed ,
` when your mad @ me .
` tell me whats troubling you ,
` no , i wont let it qo ,
` i'll make it alriqht .

`- / oh love ,
im so sorry .
your the reason why im till here .
the only reason why my heart is still beatinq ,
its beatinq for you .
` Love is all around you ,
` your universe is full .
` but in my world ,
` there is only you .

`- / Even dhe' stronqest tower falls .

`- Babeeh i know i made my mistake ,
` i admit , i was stupid .
` thought you didnt love me .
` so i wanted t qet rid of dhe' pain .

` went out but all i had was you on my mind .
` i cant get you off my mind no matter how much i try .
` maybe you were made t stay there .

`- / Em' people tryinq yah ' lies just t break us apart .

` babyy dont listen t em .
` i made my mistakes .
` and i realise ,
` i dont wanna lose you again .
` i dont wanna qo out w no other quys .

` babyy trust me ,
` one last time ..
` i wont keep no secret ; wont tell no lies .


` i cant understand why my heart is so broken .
` i know dhat' dhe' end's beginninq .
` wasted years ; wasted gains .
` all is lost ; hope remains .
` Shattered one .
` forgive me .
` iloveyou.