`- / Me and my imagination .

` i thought you could come over now .
` i thought you said sorry .
` i thought i heard you laugh .

` well , at least i thought and was able to hear it ..
` i wish i could sleep and never wake up .

` Forever in my dreams .
` Or Nightmare .

`- / FML (:

` I'm furiously Angry .
` I'm Furiously Sad .
` I'm Furiously Happy .

`- / I'm angry that i could never show you what you ment to me .
`-/ I'm sad this fight is going on .
`-/ I'm Happy cause you think my love is fake so it's easier for you to let me go while i drown in this pain .

` That's it .
` FUCKMYLIFE .
` I'm Unworthy of Love .
` Guess i was Born to Just Die Alone one day .
` Who cares ?
` As long as he doesn't care .
` i will hate myself .
` HAHAHAH FML AHHAHHHA !

` It's FUN !
` FMLFMLFMLFML :D
` i should just die .
` if this was facebook baby would comment ` Than die , hahaha ` .
` HAHAHAH FML .
` HAHAHAH .
` No Purpose in my life liao .
` HAHHAHAHHA .
` FML FOREVER ! WEEE .
` HAHAHHH .

` HE maybe end his blog !
` I END My LEFT LEG !
` AHHAHAHAH STILL FML .
` HAHAHAH .

` Guess I'll be nothing again .
` Just another face .
` i wish i was ugly than no one loves me.
` Oh wait .
` i AM ugly .
` Well,

` FUCK MY DAMN EFFING GODAMN USELESS POINTLESS MEANINGLESS LOVELESS LOUSY LAME STUPID ASS FREAK UNCARING PIECE OF LIFE .

`- / 1st December .

` I'm sitting here hearing say anything .
` I'm Feeling the pain I'm feeling everything .
` I hope your feeling nothing .
` I Hope your not going say Whatever .

` It Just Breaks my heart ,
` i Don't know why .
` But whenever you don't say i love you back .
` i would always sit on the ground and pray .

` Pray that you'll forgive me .
` Pray you'll never go , away from me .
` Pray you would appear in front of me after a blink .
` i Pray ..
` i Pray..
` i pray .. that you'll always remain mine .

` now I'm sitting alone fighting back my tears .
` thinking why is it always me that started it , at first .
` i wasn't the only one who change .
` Where were you when i needed you to be here .
` Where was i when you needed me there .

` I'm trying not to listen to everyone .
` They keep on telling me that you don't love me .
` i try not to believe .
` i try to turn away .
` but i just can't but feel that way .
` i wished you would .. stay .

` Please stay in my heart .
` Please stay in my mind .
` Please stay and say you won't ever go away .
` Please stay and say you love me too .
` Please .. stay with me forever .
` Please .. stay with me for a lifetime and don't ever leave me alone .

` I'm sorry but i really do love you .

` You keep saying everytime when i say I'm sorry it's just another lie .
` If you don't trust me than how can there be Love .
` If i Said i was a princess , if i Said i was a Troll ,
` Would you ever , believe ..

` would you ever believe me .
` and would you ever forgive me ..

`- / First time i stayed over ~


` HEHHEHEH ,
` i stayed over at my Babyy`s house !
` on dhe , 24th - 25th !
` it was awesome .
`Cabbed to babyy`s house from my chalet :x

` i don`t care about the chalet ,
` Cause babyy is more important !
` Tho i miss my primary school friends ..

` But , pssh ! they have each other XD .
` We Watch Rat-er-to-ee ( i dunno how spell ): ) !
` Than play !
` Than Sleeep :3

` Babyy loves to steal my blanket !
` i Poke Die Him !
` But , pssh .
` WHAT A ZHU !! <3

` The next night we went SK house .
` Than tiong !
` We Kena check by police ! :o !
` than Cabbed to Changi !
` Watch BenTen , powerpuff girl and The adventure of Billy and Mendy !
` than walk arounf til 5.30am .

` MRT to geylang ! :O
` walk around !
` i love being beside my baby ..
` Not having to wait for a sms .
` Not having to worry about whats he doing or who is he with .

` i love you baby .
` i`m sorry ,
` i get real sad if there are girls near you .
` can`t help myself .
` i`m useless .. :/

`- / Friends or Love ? We need em' both .

` People rather choose Love Than Friends ,
` And maybe the other way round ' .
` Well , for me ,
` I Need them both .

` W/o friends i won't have made it this far .
` W/o Love , i wouldn't last out in the cold .

` We all need both of them to even out our lives . (:


`- / WHYY ?

` Babyy , why do i feel so ignored by you ):
` i mean , i've been trying my best .
` i didn't say any bad words in audi .
` I've been kind .

` I Get jealous easily .
` But i didn't mean to hurt you .
` Cause i will probably be hurting myself :/ .

` Not physically , mentally .
` I mean , i don't dare to tell you how i feel .
` I'm afraid you might ignore me .
` Yes, i've weakened .

` I Wish , uggh .
` i just don't want to be ignored again .
` Baby i feel invisible and all alone .

` My girls won't answer .
` I don't talk to guys , only real life friends .
` In that , ' orh , okay , haha , ' way .
` Now i'm lost .
` Babyy ):

` i feel so lost .

`- / Love is all i need t get through this nightmare .

` I know , i've said sad stuff and yeah ,
` What happened t me ?
` Where did the strong me go to ?

` Well , i'm back .
` And i won't let anything hit me down again .
` i am Strong , i'm strong for you and for me .
` You gave me your love ,
` And it has became a shield over me .

` Throw your insults , your glory .
` I Won't fall , no i won't .
` I am a beginning of a new day ,
` the Start of new beginnings .

` i shall not be weakened by your words .
` Words can't hurt me .
` Well only my baby's words can ;x

` Babe ,
` Listen ,
` Your all that's good that have ever happened in my life .
` i was like a walking zombie , so heartless .
` I Never knew the world .
` Til you came.
` You changed my life rather drastically .
` I'm amaze .
` I couldn't change myself .
` But you did the impossible .
` So now i will change .

` So that you won't ever , Eveeer leave my life ♥
` you always make me smile , even when I'm crying ,
` I'm still smiling in a part inside my heart .

` Just please , don't ignore my cries .
` Cause sometimes i just need a hug from you .
` And when i said nothing is wrong ,
` Baby i'm lying .
` i just don't wanna trouble you .

`- / Love is the only thing that will last when you die .

` I Find out that I'm unable to stop myself from stalking you .
` I Got to accept the way you talk to people .
` Well , that's what i promised him .

` Not to be jealous .
` Here comes another promise ,
` ' Not to say badwords in audi .'
` Guess i can't say that in real-life too , no doubt .

` He said alot of sweet things t me .
` Alot in audi .
`I felt so touched ♥
` Until my stupid mouth said a bad word in audi .
` Geeze , i just wonder how people tolerate me :/
` Am i a Nightmare , a Disaster ?

` Just a girl who's trying to change her ways .
` When you said that song was how you felt towards me .
` I felt Perfect ,
` For once in my life .
` But , feeling gone .
` damn , i wish i could say the right words .

` Why does my heart ache to everyt little things ?
` Why am i this .. useless .
` I Tell myself to be strong .
` But you weakened me .

` Maybe that's why your in control ;o
` I went to see through our pictures in FACEBOOK .
` Do you remember what you commented in our
` ' RACING TO FINISH OUR FRENCH FRIES '
` I keep wondering everynight ,
` As i lay in bed .
` If i ever commented something like that ,
` Would you say it again ,
` Like we used to ?
` ME : wahh , want me sad uhh ? >:
` YOU : okok ;x sorry baby .

` Do you remember .
` Well , things change right ? (:
` Now you don't comment much on me .
` You don't post anything much about me like you used to .
` Okay , maybe the bad stuff .

` I Bet you won't even post any stuff on my wall .
` Maybe in 5 weeks , once ?
` Hais , whats the point .

` Feeling down lately .
` But who cares :D ?
` Just show them a smile and be happy .
` Im Happy but yet a part of me dies inside .

` Knees touching your chest ,
` Arms wrapped around each other, both laying on your knees .
` Head facing down , resting on your arms .
` And you cry t yourself .
` I Will Hold On .
` For As Long As I Can .

` Well , i Don't expect him to comment on my facebook wall anymore .
` i know he feels that weird feeling ):
` Well i'm trying t be a better girlfriend ^^
` I Also Don't expect him to tag my blog anymore .
` Hais .
` Was living just to suffer .
` My Imperfect life .
` Its only perfect when your in it .

` i look up to yet just to see you looking down .

` babyboi ,
` it hurts .
` i really does .
` i made my mistake .
` im trying mybest , i really am .
` but why ..

`- /i am Dawn , the start of a new beginning .

` My life used to be ,
• Sitting in the corner .
• Playing Games .
• Arcade .
• Anti-Social .
• Pathetic .

` Well , I admit I am still a bit Anti-Social .
` But we all have to explore the beauty of sadness before we can explore happiness and the
` Other many things in life right (:

` Some SPECIAL guy stepped into my life ,
` Last year .
` i know I've hurt you w my carelessness and misbehavior .
` Giving you that kind of feeling with my lousy attitude .
` I've learned my mistake , i Won't do it again .
` Cause your precious to me .
` You made colors in my life .
` Joy , Happiness , you made me tear , you made me smile .
` You turn my world upside down .
` You made the best out of the worst .
` Even when i thought it was impossible .

` You were the one who made possible out of the impossible .
` I guess you were that piece in my life I've been missing .
` Your Like ,
` The Rainbow after the Storm .
` The Light in the Dark .
` The Warmth in the Cold .
` The Smile on a Face .
` The Other Half of a missing heart .
` My incomplete life is now completed with you , in it .

` I Know I would go crazy ,
` If you were gone .
` My life would be set on fire .
` Destruction .
` Cause Whenever you're with me .
` I can see , i can breath .
` I can feel you ,in a way that ain't tiko-tic .
` Effing need you .

` I dont want you .
` I Need You .
`I dont like you .
` I Love you .
` Your not my anything .
` Your my Everything .
` your my Heart .
` Dont ever leave .
• 251209 .

`- / PEOPLE , LIVING ?

` 've been thinking lately ,
` Wondering why was i ever born .
` I finally realize that everyone was born for a reason .
` Maybe to change a person life perhaps .
` God gave everyone a soul-mate ,
` One we may have met , One we may soon meet .
` and I believed i have found mine .

` ONE chance is hard to give but lucky me ,
` i've got 3 chances .
` Foolish , i wasted them .
` Given my 4th chance ,
`i thought it was impossible that i would even have a 4th chance .
` I thank GOD for it .

` My ♥LovingBoyfriend was willing to give .
` I wont disappoint him .
` Not now , Not Later , Not Ever .
` If you love someone , you won't ever betray him/her .
` I'd cry a million painful tears for you but ..
` What would that help ?
` But as everyone knows ,

` A tear is too painful to be held in for too long .
` it'll come out sooner or later .
` And when it does , trust me , it'll hurt much more .
` So to everyone who reads this ,
` Just want to let you know ,

` Take every chance you have .
` Don't let them slip away .
` Because not everyone gets a second chance .
` Not everyone is forgiven .
` Not everyone you find is perfection .
` And mostly ,
` Not everyone last .

` so tell me ,
` Have anyone regretted ?
` Losing someone cause of a mistake ?
` Just a simple mistake can change everything .
` I Advise you all to think before you do .

` will it ever hurt someone ?
` will it ever affect another person's mind ?
` will it change another person forever ?
` will it crush another person's dream ?
` will it change the way they think of you ?

` Think before you do .

` And to those who nearly lost their most precious person in their life ,
` Don't do the same mistake .
` And yea , think before you do too .
` How does it feel , when you nearly lost the most priceless feeling in life .
` When you think all hope is lost .
` You just instantly fall to the solid cold ground .
` Well , i'm sure im not the only one who felt like this before .

` Tell me , what did you do other than cry and beg .
` have you tried to prove to him ?
` have you shown him how much he means to you ?
` i know , its hard to show it .
` till now , frankly ,
` i still have no idea how to show him .

` Baby ,
` Stick with me forever .
` I'll spent my whole life with you .
` i Wont betray you .
` I'll use a Life-Time to prove it to you .

`- Well i guess thats it for today .
` oh and ,
` just to tell you about the chalet i just came back from ! ♥

`- Went chalet w FAM ,
` Ahkiat (FM) ,
` BABY (Jr)
` Zhiwei (mem)
` Timothy ( mem )
` Jeremy ( mem )
` Jaslyn ( mem )
` we had so much fun !
` Best part is when i sleep w baby ♥
` Worst is that i had to go school
FYI : to ahkiat , I DID NOT FART ! I PUSHED THE BED AND THE BED MADE THAT FART SOUND >:C

` i really miss my baby now .
` i promise i won't betray !
` Cause if i ever lose you ,
` Life would just seem meaningless .
` Guess I'm addicted to you -winks- . ♥
` i really loved it when you carried me ♥
` i really missed it alot .
` thanks my babyboy ,
` you completed my life ♥

`- / Another sleepless night as i gaze at my ceiling dreaming about you .

` Hey people ,
` i actually wonder if anyone actually reads my blog or just my tags .
` anyways ,
` i was actually wanting to post about Positive stuff ,
` those to help people but suddenly ,
` im feeling really down .
` i didn't expect today would be another sleepless night as i lay down thinking of you .

` Past 2 days , if i remembered ,
` my BABY didnt sms me goodnight ,
` couldnt hear his voice .
` Than i don't know why but ,
` i would lay down and wait .
` Try entertaining myself and getting my mind back to reality .

` Sadly , my mind cant get you out my thoughts .
` your glued there , for some reason .
` Than today ,
` i thought i'd be sleeping soundly after you saying ` iLoveYou ` .
` Sadly , i said some words ,
` and i got you in a bad mood , as always .
` than it finally came to me .

` Earlier today i cried so much ,
` Hid em' from you .
` But than couldn't take the pain .
` and cried .
` There was a voice in my head ,
` Saying ` Baby i cant go anywhere w/o you ` and ` Baby dont ever Leave me ` .
` Those words were stuck there , on replay .
` Than a hug and a kiss cured it all .

` Everything was okay again .
` But thanks to me stupid selfish-ness ,
` i made you lose your mood , all thanks to me .
` Come to think of it .
` i wish i wasn't born .

` See how many people would be better off never meeting me .
` My baby won't have to suffer .
` My mother didn't have to cry and spend money on me .
` My brother can use the Television .
` My Dad wont have to accuse me for taking his stuff .

` i kept wondering ,
` was my birth a Accidentally ?
` I Have something worth living for ,
` Thats for my baby .

` I'm sorry i hurt you .
` I just wanted you to pei me in Audi .
` i just wanted to be with you .
` See-ing everyone being Lovely-Dovey ..
` maybe my heart was feeling a little empty .

` i couldnt explain but i somehow made you feel that i was blaming you .
` you always said sorry but at the end , i was sorry cause you ignored me .
` Learning the hard way for too long ,
` i can't take it .
` Going through the Hard part for so long ,
` Experiencing pain created , my wrong doings .
` its killing me .
` i Cant take learning the hard way much longer .

` i Need someone to hold me and say ` everything is okay . `
` The Hard way is driving me crazy .
` im going insane .
` i might just jump down the building now .
` but i cant bear to lose my baby .
` Now , foolish me ,
` tear-ing up .

` i deserve pain .
` i deserve hate .
` i deserve scars .
` i deserve unhappiness .
` i deserve everything that hurts .
` But i dont deserve a loving guy like you .

` I can never seem to clean my mistake ; never cheering you up after my wrong doings .
` im feeling useless .
` i know you don't deserve this .

` God ,
` Why can't i be perfect ..
` Not everything Perfect but ..
` Why can't i be perfect for him ..

` I wanna be the one who make him smile the biggest smiles .
` I wanna be the one who makes him laugh till he cries of joy .
` I wanna be the one who can take away his pain .
` I wanna be the one who can bring him happiness .
` I wanna be the one who he calls , ` Perfection ` .

` as i look at myself in the mirror ,
` i say ,
` ' Look at my eyes , their too small ' .
` ' Look at my scar , it'll be a ugly mark there '
` ' Look at my pimples , they wont stop growing '
` ' Look at my face , its so small and ugly . '
` ' Look at my body , is there something wrong with me '
` ' Look at my heart , is this the heart that had always hurt-ed you '

` Than i think of you .
` ' Look at your eyes , they shine so bright '
` ' Look at your scar , It doesnt seem to bother your looks '
` ' Look at your pimples , their getting better by the day '
` ' Look at your face , its so chubby and cute '
` ' Look at your body , its so special and nice '
` ' Look at your heart , its full of kindness and love , and it trapped me in there '

`- i wish i was perfect for you ..


`- Baby says i shouldnt go chalet if i continue being like this ,
` i already told my Mother about me going so ,
` i'm going to find some shelter and food to last me a whole night .
` as long as my baby is happy ..
` i don't mind suffering .

` Staring blankly at the sky ,
` Looks like the Moon is lonely .
` Bright , cold silver moon .
` Wishing you were lying down by my side .

` your just too perfect -//*

`- / Example of HONGSTERS .

`But before that ,
`i just want to say ,
`BABY I MISS YOU !(*$^^)$#@)%&#)%#^$&(@ ! ):


- 1stly , i dont know him , he dont know me ,
- not even my name .

( CONVO )